Another 5 days and I'll be going to the doctor. (: I'm nervous, and a little excited. Just really hoping I don't get bad news. I don't think I could handle anymore. I'm going to keep praying that we get answers and the easy fix. Also, a lot more paitence lol I know this process is a long road and not all problems get solved in 1 visit. So yeah, a lot of praying going on here. hehe
Besides baby talk;;;
This past week has been so blah! I'm homesick X's 100000. I just wish I could hug my mama and daddy :*( I've missed both birthdays and I'll miss the holidays as well. First year without them. We can't afford the stupid plane tickets because they decide to charge you a ba-jillion dollars per ticket. Sucks being stationed in a country that's FAR FAR AWAY!!! The only benefit to being here that we'll be able to travel around Europe. Other than that, it sucks monkey balls. Nothing about this country is appealing to me. All there is to do is;; sight see, get wasted, and go to the PX to blow money. Not a very exciting life is it? Nope.
You may say "Well, what do you expect to be different when you get back to the states?" Um...EVERYTHING? Seriously. I can't stress this enough....AMERCIANS DO NOT REALIZE HOW AMAZING YOU GOT IT. Wal-mart, stores opened till like 9pm, Waffle freaking house, awesome fast-food resturants, bars that actually know how to make drinks besides "Vodka and redbull, sex on the beach, tequilla sunrise, and jack & coke" Trust me, those get old SO FAST. I miss all the "sit down" resturants too. Like, Applebees, TGIFridays, Longhorn, OutBack. All those yummy places :)
Don't get me wrong the places here are nice and all but it doesn't compare to my places back home.
Yes, I just noticed that all of those things require money....I'm not dumb. I also don't expect to do those ALL the time. It's just nice to have SO many options.
Ahh and the summers in the states are going to be awesome cause we'll have A/C. No more fans that barely work. In the winter, it will be nice to have an actual heating system instead of a heater that takes FOREVER to warm up.
Blah.
I've noticed that I complain to much. Bahahahaha. Oh well.
16 October 2011
12 October 2011
October 20th
I'm getting closer to the big day! I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I just pray to God that we get the answers we've waited on for awhile.
I'm such a hypochondriac that every little thing I read makes me think "oh, this could be it" I need to stop self-diagnosing myself.... I only freak myself out that way! So that's the main reason I'm excited. I'll finally get some kind of answer. Well, I hope at least.
I'm praying like crazy!! All I want in this world is to be a mommy and Seth to be a daddy.
Ahh Seth has been so wonderful through this process. He's really kept me calm and seems to be optimistic. Defiantly something I need right now. But I'm scared to be much cause what if I get bad news? I don't wanna build myself up to only be torn down again. :( I don't know, I guess I'll just have to keep patient.
8 more days!!
Other than baby stuff....I feel like this place is crushing me. I've never been more homesick in my life. I feel like I have no friends here anymore and that I've been cast out of whatever "circle" I was in.
Everyone I do know is getting to leave this hell whole A LOT sooner than we are. It's unfair. Not gonna lie, I'm jealous of them.
I understand the Army is all about moving around and whatnot but I've been gone for a long and I won't be seeing the states until NEXT year. And unless I get pregnant anytime soon it won't be till July. Which is better than October. [Seth is sending me home 3months earlier] ANYWAY!! Being placed in another country when your 100% american is hard. At first I hated this place, then grew to really like it and even missed it when we were gone....but now I'm back to hating it. Nothing against the country or people itself...it's just not HOME.
I miss my parents more than anything. I know we have skype and telephones but it's not the same. :(
I just wanna be back in the states.
I miss Wal-mart, waffle house, Wal-mart, the mall, REAL McDonald's, all the yummy restaurants, Wal-Mart, my best friend, being around people who speak my language [no language barrier] and the list goes on and on. lol
Ugh.
it's just one of those nights.
That's why I'm glad I have a blog to rant in. <3
I'm such a hypochondriac that every little thing I read makes me think "oh, this could be it" I need to stop self-diagnosing myself.... I only freak myself out that way! So that's the main reason I'm excited. I'll finally get some kind of answer. Well, I hope at least.
I'm praying like crazy!! All I want in this world is to be a mommy and Seth to be a daddy.
Ahh Seth has been so wonderful through this process. He's really kept me calm and seems to be optimistic. Defiantly something I need right now. But I'm scared to be much cause what if I get bad news? I don't wanna build myself up to only be torn down again. :( I don't know, I guess I'll just have to keep patient.
8 more days!!
Other than baby stuff....I feel like this place is crushing me. I've never been more homesick in my life. I feel like I have no friends here anymore and that I've been cast out of whatever "circle" I was in.
Everyone I do know is getting to leave this hell whole A LOT sooner than we are. It's unfair. Not gonna lie, I'm jealous of them.
I understand the Army is all about moving around and whatnot but I've been gone for a long and I won't be seeing the states until NEXT year. And unless I get pregnant anytime soon it won't be till July. Which is better than October. [Seth is sending me home 3months earlier] ANYWAY!! Being placed in another country when your 100% american is hard. At first I hated this place, then grew to really like it and even missed it when we were gone....but now I'm back to hating it. Nothing against the country or people itself...it's just not HOME.
I miss my parents more than anything. I know we have skype and telephones but it's not the same. :(
I just wanna be back in the states.
I miss Wal-mart, waffle house, Wal-mart, the mall, REAL McDonald's, all the yummy restaurants, Wal-Mart, my best friend, being around people who speak my language [no language barrier] and the list goes on and on. lol
Ugh.
it's just one of those nights.
That's why I'm glad I have a blog to rant in. <3
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