I see pregnant women. They are EVERYONE on post/at home....and as much as I want to be happy for them....I can't. I'm not ready to jump for joy for them. I know that's mean or even selfish, but I can't help it. :(
I wish them ALL the best of luck, honest. But will I hang out with you? No. Will I attend your baby showers or strike up conversations with you about your baby? No. I don't want anything to do with it.
Cause half of you that are prego, you have what was suppose to be my due date.
After loosing two...then seeing everyone around me living what I want...its hard to be around it. Your all so excited and it kills me that I can't be for ya'll.
I'm a bitch. A bitter, bitter bitch. I have accepted my fate, but doesn't mean I have to be happy for everyone, just yet.
I know it's hard, girl. It took me almost a year to be able to be happy for someone else. It sucks!
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