04 June 2010

My Husband and I started trying for a baby when I moved to Germany back in February. We discussed the topic of babies A LOT before decided to just go for it. We both went back in forth mainly because of deployment and we didn't know how I could do it alone.
So we researched what all happens in the army when a baby is brought into it. We also debated if we were able to conceive...where would I go in terms of delivery [like, stay in Germany or go home to the states]
There were so many speed bumps in the way to making a clear decision. But after much debate and a lot of thinking...we decided to just go for it. So we began to start trying around the time he got back from training in the feild for three weeks. That was around March 30th [my bday] All of April we had unprotected sex. On May 3 about a month later I found I was pregnant!(1month,5 days) We were estatic!! Family, everyone was so happy for us. May 8th [week later] we went to the movies. After sitting there for an hour and half I had to pee so I got up and felt something drip. I was like "omg" I automatically knew what was wrong :( I felt my face turn red and I got this sick feeling. I ran to the restroom, pulled down my pants and there it was...blood. I imeditally start crying. I walked out of the restroom where Seth [hubby] stood. He saw my tears, he knew too. All I could say was "I lost the baby" he was like "Are you sure, you have any pain" I didn't have any cramps or anything. Nothing hurt. But I still knew it was gone, or about to be gone.
We rushed home, me in tears. Saying "its unfair" over and over :( I kept closing my eyes wishing it was a nightmare and I was about to wake up from it.

After calling other people for advice on what to do, Seth took me to the hospital. There they gave me an vaginal ultarsound to confirm the miscarriage. I kept looking at the screen...hoping for twins. Hoping that maybe one didn't make it, and another did. But my hopes were crushed when I saw only one. I actually saw the embroy before it passed. :( [cause I was only spotting at first] My heart broke...I kept asking "why is this happening to me? Why?"

After the doctor took my blood to watch my HCG levels she told me that they were keeping me overnight to see if everything will pass on its own. If not, I'd have to have a DNC.
The next morning, they took another vaginal ultrasound and saw more tissue. The booked me for surgery right away.
Everything went well, and I ended up with no infection and just the light bleeding with eventually stopped.
I also found out that I'm RH-.....

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